strawberry fields

lippies

2011-03-20T00:38:00.006+08:00

Not in the picture are my Maybelline Color Sensational in Bonbon Pink and The Body Shop Shell Pink lipsticks.

For a girl with a few lipsticks, I have a lot.<3

Ineffable :)

2011-03-03T11:33:00.001+08:00

When my life is so full of things to blog about, I do not blog. Hehe.

Ineffable joy, it seems. <3

matching tattoos

2011-02-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

I will get matching tattoos with the love of my life, whoever he may be. <3

iPod

2011-02-02T17:59:00.006+08:00

Here's my three-year old iPod. About time I write a commemorative blog about it. It's virus-stricken but I still value and love it. Yes it's an Apple product and some great virus was able to penetrate it. It's possible, you know.

It's actually one of my mother's gifts for my eighteenth birthday. That's why I did not push through with my iPod Touch November Plan. After all, I really value this thing my youngest brother calls "die-Pod". Haha.:))

It's the last model of iPod Classic Apple released (4^th Gen). It's in a light pink leather Belkin case, and the current headphones I'm using for it is the Philipps AirWear (this is so cool, it looks like a hairband!! I am so predictable, it's also pink. Wahaha.).

Notice how the artists and album arts on Coverflow do not match. (The Cardigans' ablum arts are those of Maroon5 and Arcade Fire.) And notice how in the Now Playing screen, although the current artist is Seal, the album art is that of 6CycleMind. Crazy die-Pod, really.

Because of its virus-stricken nature, I have never plugged or synced it with my new Sony Vaio. What I do is...I painstakingly wait for my downloaded songs to reach 4GB, I burn them into a DVD. Then I bring the DVD home, insert it into my virus-stricken five-year old dismembered laptop, then sync the songs there.

places

2011-01-30T17:10:00.002+08:00

When I think of places I want to go to, I think of going with you.

lab mice

2011-01-24T16:23:00.004+08:00

They actually made my day! (well, last friday...)

These little guys are Vince, Willi and Kiko's lab mice, for their hypoglycemic study regarding kamote leaves and metformin. There are like, 30+ of them. I love their names!!

Bamboo and James Blunt

2011-01-21T21:11:00.001+08:00

Is it me or do they really sound alike especially in James' song Turn Me On?

Hm.

15-yr old Jen

2011-01-18T10:19:00.001+08:00

E: Haha. I guess. Ang tapang ko kasi. I didn't know how to respond to him. Di kasi ako pacute diba. Ugh. Pero yeah, I liked him. Kaya lang di na sya lumaki at mukhang tambay na talaga. Haha. Naalala ko tuloy kung gano ka perfect si _____. Si P? Nirebound ka at pinagpalit? Rebound ka kanino at pinagpalit ka kanino? Syet fock. I don't even know how you guys broke up. Refresh please?

J: Ah rebound from A then pinagpalit kay A din. Pero it never worked out for him. Hehe. And naforgive and forget ko nay un, I love him as a good friend now. Hehe. Nagbreak kami kasi ang dami nyang reasons na hindi nagmmake sense. Sa acads daw. Hehe. Oh well.

E: Haha. Weird din kasi tase ni A. Mahilig sa bakla. Wahahaha. Oh well. Immature pa rin naman nun si P. Lahat kaya halos ng girls nirondahan nun. Haha. I never knew talaga why you guys broke up. Funny. Pero saglit lang kayo nun diba?

J: Yuh. 2 months lang. Pero took me a year to forget. Hahaha. Ay nako immaturities. Haha. Sana we'd end up with a decent mature guy no (_____ aside)?:)

E: A year??? Grabe…You were that in love with him? Hindi proportional! Gah. Yeah. I really want someone older. _____. Haha. Hay. Weniway, I have to sleep na. You too. Ang aga aga mo pa kaya tatakbo. Hmmmkay? Night, jen! Mwah!

(then I told her how I was going to run at 4am along Roxas blvd. she was worried. I told her I'd be bringing just my virus-stricken ipod and P30. She asked how an ipod with virus was even possible. )

J: Yuh. Ipod classic to eh. Galing pa sa old laptop ko kaya di ko chinacharge sa new laptop. Haha. Don't worry L, mukha naman akong rape victim pag haggard at tumatakbo kaya wala na lalapit sakin bukas. Haha.:))

E: Wahahahahah!! That's so funny Jen! I swear! As in! Fock you. Wahahahahaha. Im asleep na, bitch. Night!

ukay madness

2011-01-12T21:08:00.005+08:00

After two years, I finally found myself shopping and haggling in the friendly neighborhood ukay again. I was already supposed to go home but then something magnetized me toward the ukay (it might be the 40% off sign).

So after about 15 minutes, I had a handful of stuff I wanted to fit. But then the make-do fitting room queue was too long so I started fitting stuff outside the fitting room, with my clothes on, of course.

Then Zel called telling me she was already almost in my apartment so I quickly haggled paid for my 2 cardigans, pullover and dress, then rushed to her. P300 for all that. Not bad, eh?Oh that was the fastest and most satisfying ukay trip I had in years!

So I washed my new clothes while Zel sorted the MOrg shirts in my room. She really liked the Banana Republic pullover I jackpot-ed so she went to the same ukay after leaving my place. (After about 30 minutes, I received a message from Zel: 2 blouse at isang maong skirt from ukay! Haha. Sa susunod sabay tayo magukay jen! Hehehe.:))

The other dress in the picture, I got that from Cash and Carry (with Ellein) last night.

~~~

Okay, enough about clothes. I still have a quiz and seminar to facilitate tomorrow!

first

2011-01-08T18:15:00.001+08:00

Welcome to the club, he said. That moment I knew I would never be the same again.:)

letting go

2011-01-05T20:59:00.011+08:00

I finally posted these on ebay, after some serious procrastinating! This is my nth attempt on freeing some space on my closet/rack. Some went to charity (farm folks), and here are some I'd rather make a few bucks off:

4-inch Black Tie Knot Satin Pumps.:)

Size 6, Used Once for a Piano Recital

4 inch heels, size 6 too.:)

I used these once, for the white coat ceremony.

summer dress.:)

Mango Paisley Dress

This weekend after the tat, I will post some more.:)

nostalgia, 2

2010-12-31T18:55:00.002+08:00

Browsing through the archives of this blog, I can’t help but notice how much have changed since I went to college. And as I was going through college.

I remember why I set up this blog (June 2006), so that I can chronicle my college life as it unfolds. But I guess majority of the time I had the writer’s block, or I was simply preoccupied with other stuff.

So here I am, typing away during the last few moments I have left of 2010. I do not want to wrap the year up in extensive sentences in this blog because I am too embarrassed to do so. (pa-cute smile here. Haha).

I would just like to say this.. 2010 didn’t start as well as I hoped it would, but I learned several life lessons along the way: Forgive, Forget, Love. In the end everything eventually turns out just fine.:)

inked

2010-12-31T18:22:00.002+08:00

Sanskrit:एवेर्य दय इस अ मिरच्ले

Spanish: cada día es un milagro

Latin: cotidie virtutem

French: chaque jour est un miracle

every day is a miracle

500 for someone lucky

2010-12-22T20:26:00.001+08:00

Last week before going home from Bo's place, where we were having a little MOrg kinda-Christmas party, I withdrew Php500 from BPI in Astral using my GCash account. I guess I was REALLY tired, so after I got my card out, I turned away from the ATM and headed home, without even getting my cash!

I only realized what happened when, shortly after crossing the Intersection of Apacible and San Marcelino, I checked my phone and saw the withdrawal confirmation message from Globe. Oh my Jen. Too late to go back now, I guess. At least I did not forget to get my card too, right?

Anyways, in my quest to be a shiny happy person all the time, I just let it go.

I would like to think the person who got it needed it more than I did.

thoughts on you

2010-12-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hey you..I just don't get it. Why do you keep acting like a bad person when you're NOT?

You act like a douchebag, especially in treating (and replacing) women, but you really aren't that kind of person. Really. Why do you keep acting like a jerk in front of your friends?

I saw how you really were, loyal and loving.

Anyway, I'm hoping you're just passing through THAT phase of your life.

Cream Silk ReCharge Stregth Boost. It works!

2010-10-17T20:03:00.002+08:00

My sister visited me last week, during my GC haze, and it didn't take her even a minute to realize how much hair I have been losing. See it was everywhere, in every corner of my room, in my sheets, in my table!

So then she told me that it probably is because of stress. I wanted to explain to her how it may also be caused by my OB medications but I was too tired so I just shut up. I have all of Sunday to tell her anyway. :)

She told me that if I wanted to save my remaining hair I had to de-stress myself. "Stop thinking about your studies!" She said that she had a lot of hair fall too last year because she was the class president, CAT officer, and EIC of our former high-school's paper. I knew she was just trying to help me solve my problem but I cannot ignore my GCness. See, it was finals week last week and three subjects didn't have exemption criteria, so everyone was required to take them damn finals.

Then on wednesday, because I was already out of conditioner, I went to the hair section of Mercury Drug near my place. And because they didn't have stocks of my regular conditioner, I randomly snatched a sachet of the new variant of Cream Silk Strength Boost. I figured, I will give this a try then buy a bigger one if it manages to keep my hair on its roots.

Alas! On my first use I only saw about 5 strands fall off (usually about 30). So then I bought some more and over the next few days it seemed my hair was becoming healthier, it doesn't want to leave my scalp anymore! I already bought myself the bottle/big tube, whatever it is called. Yay!!

Lazy as it sounds, I do not have to sweep my room everyday anymore! Ha! Ha! Maybe only three times a week, now.xp (But hey, I am a gal-on-the-go! *wide grin*)

strawberry pancakes

2010-09-26T16:14:00.007+08:00

Experimenting on a can of strawberry preserves and a box of Pillsbury served well.:) These are for our STS Russian booth. :D

bargains

2010-07-30T22:07:00.008+08:00

So I've been doing a lot of internet shopping lately. Not that I have a lot of money. But I have been doing so because I get easily tired walking around the mall looking for the right stuff. Using the internet, you just type the keyword and voila! Items matching your query pop-up.:)

Within the week, I was able to acquire these awesome stuff:

1. A BCBG Max Azria Polo:

2. Ruby Vintage Studs (I've been looking for a pair for the longest time!):

3. Zara Little Black Dress:

So there. Now to the not-so-bargain-y-thing I want to splurge on:

That's the sample gold version of the batch ring (around 6k!). I'm thinking of just settling with the silver version (3.6k), with a Garnet stone (for UP Maroons). Ohmy. My money's flying away again!

6 months

2010-07-17T20:37:00.001+08:00

6 months of treatment and hopefully "these" will go away. Pray with me.

making rock-hard brownies

2010-07-17T19:56:00.009+08:00

Last sunday, Maling and I tried making perfect brownies, but we ended up with rock-hard very sweet brownies. BUT we weren't that disappointed because all of it was consumed before the end of the day.:D So it wasn't that bad.

Step 1: Mix the ingredients in a bowl.

Step 2: Make sure lumps of powder do not exist.

Step 3: (Grease the pan, then pour the concoction). Then, Oven!

Step 4: After 15 minutes, take the pan out.

Voila! My first ever home-made brownie experience.:D

my sister's laptop

2010-07-12T20:10:00.009+08:00

Of course, my little sister also received her new laptop (a black Lenovo). She's a butch, yes. Hahaha.:D

Anywho, here she is playing chess in my bed:

And here is the back view of her Lenovo:

Of course, I used it to camwhore (1st ever camwhore moment using a webcam!). Here I am in a superman outfit:

And in the following pictures just goofing around in my parents' room:

vaiola

2010-07-11T13:34:00.005+08:00

My laptop from the States finally arrived! yay.:) She's so pretty, I named her Vaiola.:D Here she is:

Vaiola is <3.

hairband-madness

2010-06-03T23:14:00.005+08:00

I finally found time to fix my new apartment room. In the process of doing so, I dug these up from the jungle underneath my table. And in my attempt to put them in order, I tried cramming them into the mouth of an empty Erlenmeyer flask (which I found in another jungle elsewhere). In the end I failed. There's just too many of them!

So while we are on the topic of hairbands, these are my two favourite accessories:

The blue one, I bought on sale back in 2nd year college in SM Harrisons. While the stretchable one (I do not know how it's called exactly) I got from Majo (from the States). Goes to show how the best things in life are cheap/free, doesn't it?

passed out

2010-05-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

Last night I experienced my first black out drunken haze. So that's how it feels when drunk people say everything's spinning. And that's how surprised you get when you wake up somewhere, and you don't know how you got there. And the worst/most funny thing about all that was I absolutely do not remember some/most of what I said or did. Next!

eL Laboratories

2010-05-02T21:26:00.007+08:00

So the manufacturing internship ended yesterday (Apparently, eL is already a part of Biñan and not Sta. Rosa). I did not at all expect that I'd actually like and enjoy it there. We had a chance to go around and experience each department (QAI, QC, Prod, Warehouse, DCC, Prod Devt), but I enjoyed Prod the most. Especially whenever I am assigned to be a part of an on-line packaging assembly. There you have no choice but to be all hyped up and ready. (In comparison to other departments where staying awake is really really hard)

I will never ever forget the people I met there (Okay, maybe some/most of our co-interns I will forget). Even if someone says he's sure after a few years when we're already successful, we wouldn't even remember him. Ironically, I think it's him we will remember the most.

It's funny how unexpectedly things/perspectives change when you see the bigger picture. I thought of quoting Zac Efron in 17 Again but it wouldn't really be appropriate for the setting. Haha. Randomness forever Jen.

By the way, we rented half of a pretty big 2-storey house in San Jose Village 4C in Biñan. I particularly love its location in the village. Very..advantageous despite it being located at the cornermost corner of the last street. (Evil laugh) So. Here are some of the more memorable happenings inside the house:
- late night ROFLs because of random funny stuff
- "hawaan" of contagious quirks
- shamelessly speaking in accents
- cooking and being appreciated for it
- writing daily sabaw journals in the balcony
- late night drinking sessions (despite the 4.30 am wake up call)

laguna, pgh

2010-04-03T08:57:00.003+08:00

So I do not have a vacation. I guess continuous work comes, literally, with growing old. But I am not too old. (I have batchmates born in 1988. We, the younger ones, in 1990)

I'm spending the rest of April and a bit of May with moi blockmates in Sta. Rosa, Laguna. We're renting a house, and there will be cooking assignments. Shocking, but I've never let them taste anything I cooked before. (This thursday, Sweet and Spicy Chicken!) And, of course, there will be drinking sessions. >:) Hopefully we'd still have enough energy at the end of the day.

Then May will be PGH month. Oooh my. The tiredness of it all! Not to mention the chaos in Manila because of the elections (which I will be part of, by the way!:]). Nevertheless, I'm really excited about learning how to make sterile preparations (injectables, parenteral nutrition, antidotes, etc). And I want a picture of me in a bunny suit. Not the playboy type, but the chemist type! Hahahaha.

~~~~~

I used to regret something that happened today, last year. But now I don't. The most important w, why was there. And the magic was there.

nerdy jenny

2010-03-30T22:04:00.002+08:00

Tonight, I drank my milk with a carbocisteine capsule. Then I grasped when I realized what I just did. I drank it with milk!

It took all of 5 seconds for these questions to pile in my head:
- Will milk interact with carbocisteine?
- Will milk delay dissolution of the capsule?
- Will the ions in milk chelate with carbocisteine?
(then I pictured cysteine with some sort of alkyl group attached to it. trying to figure out where calcium will bind)
- WILL CARBOCISTEINE'S BIOAVAILABILITY DECREASE?!?!?!
(if so, hindi mawawala tong annoying phlegm thingy!!!)

Gosh. This is what I've become after a sem of Dispensing & Incompatibilities. Haha. Anyway I'm not really complaining. I got exempted from taking the finals!:)

new baby

2010-03-06T18:45:00.004+08:00

my new baby:

UHUH!! I love it. Thank you gab for suggesting this (when I was on the verge of buying an E71). Nokia E72 is WAY better. With the Trackpad, 5 MP and all. And I chose metal grey.

Here's more information if you're thinking of buying it, too:
NOKIA E72

I have yet to name it though.

Thank you DADDY!!! =*

removed

2010-03-01T01:26:00.002+08:00

I do not hate you. I removed you from my list because I do not want to hate you.

When I remember you, I want to think good times, and love.

terrified

2010-02-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

So, this song made my day (and the free venti vanilla frap from starbucks.xp):

Lala Lala la la
Mmmmmm mmm
You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world
Full of wrong
Your the thing thats right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrifed
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life

This could be good
Its already better than that
And nothings worse
Than knowing your holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh I only mean it
'Couse its true
So dont you tear
What I've been dreaming
'Couse it keeps me up
And holds me close
Whenever Im without you

You set it again
My hearts in motions
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life, life
In my only life

(Terrified by Kara Dioguardi)

dear john

2010-02-17T21:25:00.004+08:00

(this post is at least one week late)

Okay, so it wasn't such a good movie after all. I must say the one who cut the scenes for the Teasers was indeed brilliant! BUT, it did have its share of amazing moments.. And most of all, it made me cry (the last time I cried over a movie was with Love of Siam). Not so much because of the stuff that happened in the movie but because certain scenes in there made me remember ..uhmm, stuff.

Anyway, after watching this, lame as I am, I wrote a "dear john". Not really sure if I'd ever let "john" read it though. Perhaps before he leaves? Or Not.

Things are becoming ironic again!

tumblr

2010-01-27T22:20:00.002+08:00

finally, something that doesn't require too much explaining, TUMBLR!

here:

queeniejenny.tumblr.com

NMAT Results.

2010-01-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

I got a line-of-9 score.:) Yay! It's not as high as I need it to be though, so I'm considering re-taking the test with my own moolah. Oh gosh. Spending my own 2k on something immaterial will be hard!

At least something good came out of that day (Dec.13 :[).

kung ayaw, 'wag pilitin

2009-12-29T19:16:00.005+08:00

Hm. Yesterday I thought of how I and the people around me have matured since I entered college four years ago. If I were back in that period, I would have begged for reconciliation, blackmailed and extorted a bit, just to get what I want.

These days, I love myself more. Sure, I miss him, but I know I shouldn't do anything about it. I know things will turn out better, eventually, with or without him.

And, more importantly (although I'm pretty sure the people I'm referring to won't be able to read this post), I love the select people who listened to me, and those who told me off from doing/thinking stupid things around two weeks ago. I love you guys.

.

2009-12-26T18:13:00.001+08:00

Relapse.

I hate this lonely feeling. :'c

election, registration

2009-12-21T16:58:00.002+08:00

I used to put off registering for the elections because of Ace's story, where he waited three days to complete his registration. So the registration period was extended, and it took me all of ONE HOUR to finish it.

I can now say the Dasmariñas COMELEC is efficient.

over the edge

2009-12-18T14:34:00.002+08:00

We come to our own center of the world
Where all faces fade into darkness.
All I see is you
No longer there

No one can erase the past
As witnessed by the stars,
But the world can never wait
For anyone to start over.

(Over The Edge - Dicta License)

Breakups are never easy. You start questioning yourself and reality. You don't really know if you did anything wrong, And you don't know if it's really okay to trust him when he says he's not cheating on you. (I do, by the way. Either way, there's really nothing I can do if he is.)

It wasn't my intention to tell all my blockmates about it, but sure enough, they noticed how swollen and red my eyes were the next morning. So that's how they found out.

I don't know when I will finally be able forget everything, but I'm happy because I think I'm handling it quite well.

No, I'm still not over him and I DO still love him. After all, he made me really happy. BUT I can never force anything upon anyone, especially feelings. And I can't really be happy in a one-way relationship. (Remember? It always takes two to tango.)

When will I get over this? Only time will tell. Meanwhile, I will continue to do the things I do, sans him, and hopefully avoid getting all emotional remembering things associated to him.

90210 season 1

2009-11-05T20:56:00.003+08:00

Yay! I finally have 90210 season 1.:) I was willing to download it but luckily, I found a copy near SM Dasma. Here's the summary written at the back of the "case":

Annie and Dixon are transferred to Beverly Hills High School, Anne knows a school was once the lover Ethan (Ethan) had a severely mine. When Annie would like to sit on board the Ethan of the time greeting, but suddenly found his legs under a woman is "busy" with... ... When Anne learned that Ethan and her understanding of school after the first friend Naomi (Naomi) is the relationship between lovers, makes no reference to Anne before the Select to see.
Dixon would like to join the hockey team, but opponents of George (George) Dixon jealous superior skills, they deliberately crash Dixon, the two played together then. Ethan in order to protect themselves, the principal did not tell George Dixon to the facts of provocation, Dixon very angry, they send text messages to tell Ethan on a clandestine love affair of Naomi.

Crazy, huh?

fight, fight, fight!

2009-11-04T14:10:00.003+08:00

So after everything I learned in Microbiology class, I've grown to cheering on my immune system whenever I have infections (examples: ingrown, pimple, singaw). Of course the cheer I'm talking about doesn't involve shouting and dancing around with pompoms. Otherwise people would think I'm losing my mind. (Or am I?)

I do not utter the words out loud, by the way, I just play them in my mind, over and over, everytime I remember I have an open wound/infection. (Especially that time when Ondoy struck and I was forced to walk through the flood just to get home! Luckily, I didn't have a wound then. But Leptospira interogans can be quite virulent even if there's no wound.)

Nothing's wrong with encouraging your cells right? Especially when they're in combat mode 24/7. Haha. :)) Everything is totally justifiable.:D

[Written Nov. 3 midnight - I WAS SO BORED.]

characters, 90210

2009-11-03T10:45:00.002+08:00

I like Naomi. When I relate this to my friends they all say, "Eh ang arte nun ha!". Then I defend her saying she's beautiful and a real good person deep inside.

Pero I can't blame them if they hate/don't like her the way I do. They probably saw all the bitchy stuff she put Annie through (in the first season), the crappy way she treats people who aren't popular, etc etc. Who wouldn't hate her?

Maybe the saying "First impression lasts" is true. I only saw one episode of season 1 and I've been watching the second season like a crazed 90210 fan. In that one episode of season 1, I saw her feeling broken with no family, and sure enough, I felt sad for her. And in the second season, she thought she was betrayed by Annie - so she did revenge on Annie (sort of like Blair sans Deroda). Everything she does is totally justifiable (if you ask me. xp).

And, this one time I was watching E!, they showed this picture of her without make-up on and she was so beautiful! That article actually led me to this product endorsed by her (Annalyn McCord) manufactured by Sanofi-Aventis, which is sold only in the USA.

Anyway, in conclusions, I hope she and Liam make up already!!:)) And, I hope 90210 doesn't end up like OTH boredom.

wallet

2009-03-18T05:13:00.002+08:00

My cards (membership, loyalty, discount, CCs, IDs) are piling up and I am beginning to feel the need to use a wallet. Now I just have to find the perfect one (perfect, for me).

Reasons why I don't use a wallet:

I used to have one, until it got stolen along with all the cards and money I carried that day.
Application for replacement cards is really tedious.
I misplace stuff easily.
So my cards and money are not concentrated in one place, therefore, it would not be such a loss if one of them gets stolen, or lost.
I'm quite OC searching for the right wallet.

beerless beerthday. xp

2009-02-22T12:42:00.004+08:00

Finally, I find time to blog, or, more appropriately, something sensible to blog about. Today's my nineteenth year on Earth! Yay! :) Though Glenn says it makes my crime of going out with an underage worse. x.x Hahaha, well, one year doesn't really count. xp

Anyway, here's a rundown of the things I am really thankful for:

My parents, of course, because they, as I can see, do everything they can to give me and my siblings what we need and want. They mean the world to me.
My friends both in college and in highschool. People to whom I can expose my real baduy, corny, gloomy, happy, lazy, gc self. I wouldn't trade them for anything else. :)
My being a 'regular' third year student. (Though sometimes I wish to be otherwise because of all the stress. xp) But being in CP gives you a constant level of uncertainty... :c
My "talents", and the opportunity to practice and to show them to the world. xp
Him, for making everyday a special day, and for making my heart skip a beat when I least expect it. ^^,

There. My first birthday where I didn't desperately want anything earthly. Haha. Guess being past 18 gives one a bit of maturity. Anyway, I'm happy enough and I hope this lasts for a long time. That's all for now. [Leona Lewis' Run and Marie Digby's Say It Again are playing through my head like pirated CDs. Hahaha. :) ]

something

2009-01-17T15:48:00.003+08:00

I've been wanting to blog about "something" but every time I go to the "create new post" page on blogger my mind goes blank. Perhaps it just goes to remind me that that something isn't in my mind but in my heart. I sound mushy don't I? Hahahahahahaha

updates

2008-12-27T10:38:00.004+08:00

1. During Christmas day my brother and my mom had this conversation:

M: Maging mabait ka na, yun na lang gift mo sakin sa Christmas.
A: New Year's Resolution ko yun.
M: Bakit hindi na lang ngayon?
A: I like to keep things on schedule.

Hahaha. Just sharing. He's even weirder than me. Hahah.

2. I brought all of my uniforms off and had, like 5 or more inches off the waist. Seriously. Even when I was at my fattest last sem, it was at least 2 inches too loose around the waist (and the butt). Oh during our last uniform day for this year I saw a 'person' without hot pants under her white slacks, and her panties were being 'eaten by her butt' in unequal proportions. Ohmy, next time I'd avoid that nightmarish sight. Heck, mean as I may sound, I feel embarrassed for her.

3. Well, I spent most of the last week of school for this year with someone .... Great. As my sister told me, I sound so mushy and annoying so I won't elaborate much on this.

4. I don't know what to buy with my Christmas money. Seriously. Either I have too many things in mind but I don't have enough money or I don't want anything badly enough.

5. I had at least 10 inches of my hair cut last sembreak, but I still feel the urge to cut it shorter. Haha. Short haircut is sort of addictive, trust me. Or is it because I'm too lazy to maintain a longer do? Hm. My crazy ideas are starting to pile again. :)

6. I soooo love Katy Perry. And I want a strawberry necklace like the one she has:

!@#$%^

2008-12-17T05:20:00.003+08:00

I feel like I've gone miles since my previous posts and I feel so different (in a good way).

Later's lantern parade and let's see what happens. =)

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Now I officially know that I have Type A blood. Haha! All this time I tought I was an O. =)

g

2008-12-13T07:20:00.002+08:00

Remember when I dove into the crowd
And I got a bloody knee under my skin, a mark from wiping out
It brings back the memories
Every bone's been broken
But my heart is still wide open

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted too

With each scar there's a map that tells a story what a souvenir of Young love's like jumping out
An airplane riding a tidal wave on an ocean of emotion
My heart rips me wide open

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted too

And I cover up these scars
(We'll make it we'll make it but we break it)
And I can't stop seeing stars
(lets hope not die)
Whenever you're around
Around

I can't stop
Don't care if I lose
Baby you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
I'm going down in flames for you
oohhh you are the weapon I choose
These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing I'm addicted to

I can't stop no I cant stop
no I can't stop
Ohh I'm going out in flames
Ohh I'm going down in flames

band nostalgia

2008-11-29T23:10:00.009+08:00

I love playing music.

I just wished music loved playing me too.

I'd like to play music everytime my schedule allows it. Not the kind of play where you press to play but the kind of play where you actually produce music. As Bamboo says "the music plays the band, the songs play the music".

I'm frustrated. I understand the theory and I've been thought a hundred times by my teacher, but I still can't play modern piano properly. Somehow classical music seems easier though it's actually harder. I can't even express how much my inability makes me feel unworthy. =(

frustration

2008-11-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

Funny how people say I should like someone better when he doesn't even notice me. He DID, but that wasn't enough.

1@^&&#@*#@#$%^&!@#$%^&*(@%^&*.
On the bright side, it's good that unlike others he's loyal to his girlfriend.

Need I say SHE'S THE LUCKIEST person on earth?

This is beyond frustrating!

truth thursday

2008-11-20T20:54:00.001+08:00

I want to show the world the movie Love of Siam so they would better understand gays.

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/224/TRUTH_THURSDAY_10_THIS_HANDMADE_LIFE

puppies, etc

2008-10-29T17:09:00.009+08:00

Okay, last week pa dapat 'tong post na 'to, pero dinedelay ko kasi inaabangan ko pa ang photogenic moment nila. Kaya lang tinatamad na ko, saka malapit na magpasukan (feeling ko, haha) madami pang nakapilang dapat kong pagkaabalahan kaya eto na.

Nung super busy sa school kasi 3 linggo akong hindi umuwi, kaya malay ko bang nanganak na pala si Nana. 4 puppies lahat - Dolce, Viktor, Gabbana, Rolf - hahahaha - si Jamie nagpangalan dyan. Si Viktor (white) at Gabbana (brown):

Cute no? Meron din palang bagong pusa si Tune, maliit pa sya na white. Ang pangalan naman Saddam. Hahaha. Hindi ka talaga mababagot dito sa bahay!

Sabi rin pala ng mga tao, masyado akong pasugod magmaneho. E ano ba, wala pa naman akong nababangga kaya go!

Saka nga pala friends, I strongly recommend the movie Love of Siam (Thai movie). Kung gusto nyo ng movie na kasing lakas ng Windstruck ang dating. Nakakamove yan, tagaktak ang luha ko. Pero kung homophobic kayo wag na.

with sam

2008-10-28T07:11:00.006+08:00

Ellein, gaya ng napag-usapan, igrab mo na lahat ng photo na gusto mo. :) Naisip ko rin ilagay sa multiply pero dito na lang, kasi konti lang may alam neto, saka alam mo naman ang mga contact natin sa multiply.

(click to view full images)

Friends namiss ko kayo, sobra. :)

(magaling ba magpt kapatid mo, ellein? haha)

truth thursday

2008-10-23T18:18:00.002+08:00

I want to say yes to people asking if I can do this and that. (play violin or cello, drive in a race match, swim butterfly style, play something immediately after hearing it, write really poetic poems, have top scores in school - i know, these are a bit impossible for me, but these are the things I want, aside from )

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/221/Truth_Thursdays_9_A_Handmade_Life

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I'm feeling shiny happy these days and I don't know why. Lovelife? Hindi, I'm tigang as can be! xp

river flows in you

2008-10-22T07:43:00.002+08:00

Salamat kay Nina Galang sa pag-iintroduce ng River Flows In You by Yiruma. Ittry ko na syang tugtugin mamaya-maya pagkatapos mag-enlist. May mga piesa talagang pag pinakinggan mo ay may pinapahiwatig talagang feelings na hindi mo maipapaliwanag gamit ang mga salita. Haha. Wala lang namove kasi ako nung tugtog. Pero ngayon hindi naman ako napaiyak. Haha.

Yon. Ang dami dami nang nakapilang dapat gawin ngayong araw na to. Pati haharapin ko na ang katotohanan sa 35 at 27 mamaya. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

kwentuhan time

2008-10-18T08:56:00.013+08:00

Kaninang umaga, pagkagising ko nasa kwarto ko na si Tune, nakikinig at naglalaro na ng kung anu mang laro sa iPod ko.

Tapos may kwinento sya saking may classmate siya na mapangit ang legs and all, tapos sobrang bothered sya hindi ko alam kung bakit. Tapos siyempre pinagbalingan niya rin ako. Sabi niya tungkol sa legs ko, "Maganda nga ang balat mo puro taba naman. Para kang nagDota pero first blood ka. IT'S LIKE WINNING WITHOUT PRIDE, MAN." Tapos sinuggest nya na magjogging daw ako tutal sembreak naman.

Sobrang idealistic ata ng kapatid ko. Ohwell, at least he knows how to use metaphors now.

truth thursday

2008-10-16T08:33:00.001+08:00

On my walls I would write
the reminders on my head that keep me from going back
or your name
i would write all the things i really wish would happen
also "thank you" and "i'm sorry".

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/208/TRUTH_THURSDAYS_8_A_HANDMADE_LIFE

truth thursday

2008-10-09T12:15:00.000+08:00

I wish I still had some of the things I used to have, just that and I'll be happy.

And I wish to see my highschool friends, I miss them so much.

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal?&=&page_start=40

truth thursday

2008-10-02T19:18:00.000+08:00

I want to write a really good poem for you, I want to be motivated, I want to win the lottery (without having to place a bet!), I want to score very high in a non-UP test, I want to go to the beach, I want to go home (or just some place where I don't need to worry), I want to try lomo, I want to jam with you all day, but more than anything I want to be a senior next year.

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/200

truth thursday

2008-09-25T20:41:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if really mean what I say and if I say what I really feel. Sometimes I wonder if I only say or do things to please people around me, if not to avoid judgment. But most of the time I shun these thoughts away before they accumulate and make me do stupid things.

Sometimes I surge with power.
Sometimes I am unable to buckle down my euphoria.
Sometimes I feel really terrible.
Sometimes I want to go home.
Sometimes I hate my body.
Sometimes I want someone to love all my faults.
Sometimes I don't want anyone to look at me.
Sometimes I don't say what I feel.
Sometimes I regret what I did...
Sometimes

Sometimes wish I was six.

(Sabrina Ward Harrison)

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/197/TRUTH_THURSDAYS_5_IDENTITY_

truth thursday

2008-09-18T23:00:00.003+08:00

Today I carry thoughts about next week(my pharm life), *****, and other worries. See, I worry too much about the future. Sometimes I get preoccupied and forget the real things I should bother myself with. I want to be spontaneous sometimes, but I don't want a big mistake to make me see the line between spontaneity and irresponsibility.

"I want to tell you something. But if I let the words out of my head maybe they'll run away. So for now, my lips are sealed."

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/193/TRUTH_THURSDAYS_4_IDENTITY_

truth thursday

2008-09-11T15:59:00.003+08:00

My worries today:

my grandmother
my parents (everyday, actually)
chem 150
biochem lab
someone*
weight issues

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/185/TRUTH_THURSDAYS_3_still_on_IDENTITY

truth thursday

2008-09-04T15:53:00.003+08:00

My body is holding back every untold story I would never dare tell anyone, a succession of events from childhood up to now, problems as old as me, or older. I am never really sure.

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/180/TRUTH_THURSDAY_2_IDENTITY

the beatles, too!

2008-09-03T20:01:00.003+08:00

from my cousin rei-anne...

RULES:
- Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 7 more people.

Band/Singer/Group I chose: The Beatles

1. Are you male or female? "Girl"

2. Describe yourself. "Free As A Bird"

3. What do people feel when they're around you? "Her Majesty" ahahahahaha

4. How would you describe your previous relationship? "While My Guitar Gently Weeps"

5. Describe your current relationship. "If I Fell"

6. Where would you want to be now? "Flying"

7. How do you feel about love? "All You Need Is Love!" ahaha

8. What's your life like? "Stawberry Fields Forever"

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish? "It Won't Be Long"

10. Say something wise. "Let It Be"

[i won't comply with the tag-7-people part, i'm too lazy to rack my brains right now! xp]

truth thursday

2008-08-28T20:25:00.001+08:00

My body is holding on to the stars at the back of my hand.

This is the closest I've been to stars and the metaphors they inspire since becoming an adult half a year ago.

I wish I really always aimed for the moon, that way even if I miss I'll land among the stars.

http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/176/TRUTH_THURSDAYS_01_IDENTITY

Happy Birthday to my little brother. =)

ph ch 135 lab

2008-08-23T05:55:00.005+08:00

Since walang ibang laman ang isip ko ngayon kundi pharm chem 135 lab, yun na lang ang ibblog ko. Ngayon kasi, naffrustrate ako sa Gravimetry. Pati kay Ma'am Tan. Pero mas naffrustrate ako sa prelab para sa Gravimetry na gusto ko nang gawin kasi sa Tuesday ang pasahan. Ang dami kong kailangan basahin para sa isang prelab - nakapila na sila - Skoog, JENkins, Vogel (ohno. dapat hiniram ko si Chatten). Dahil isa akong tipikal na studyanteng naghahanap rin ng online sources dahil mas madaling hanapin, ginoogle ko rin ang topic ko. Puro naman mga tanong ng AS students na nagchchem 32 ang mga nakita ko.

So nagkaidea naman akong tanungin si Nas (biochem friend) tungkol dun. Baka sakaling nakapag-Gravimetry na sya dahil one time napagkwentuhan namin (habang dumudugo ang ilong ng nakikinig na si Paul) ang random titration at nasabi nyang nakapag-Quantitative Analysis na sila. Dapat talaga nakapunta ako sa GA kahapon para natanong ko siya. Pero hindi naman yun ang principle reason kung bakit gusto ko magGA. Alam kong lahat ng org members sinasabi to tungkol sa org nila: Masaya sa (name of org here). Pero pag sinasabi ko yun damang-dama ko talaga! As in. Buti talaga napa-MOrg ako kung hindi madadagdagan ang pagka-ngarag ko ngayon ng boredom, kawalan ng active musical life at higit sa lahat pag-miss ng parte ng buhay ko na dahil sa mga ka-org na napalapit na sa akin.

"Pag si Ma'am Toralba ang sumisita sa'yo, feeling mo tanga ka lang. Pag si Ma'am Tan, feeling mo bobo ka." - Jorge (habang nagshsharing kaming mga mgaka-lab)

jackpot?

2008-08-17T14:10:00.003+08:00

ewan. ahm, jackpot ba talaga ang tawag dun kahit meron palang sabit? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. dapat talaga di ako nag-iisip ng mga ganto eh. hahaha.

anyway, kinakahabahan ako magpractice sa wednesday with keith. kasi wala pa kong experience sa paghahalo ng classical music at modern riffs. lalo pa't may mga nagsabi na mapapamura ka sa sobrang galing ni keith magguitar. ohwell. at least friends kami, siguro babawas yun factor na yun sa kaba, sana.

happy day

2008-08-08T19:28:00.004+08:00

wala lang, i just want to tell the world how happy i've been today. hopeless na kung hopeless pero who cares? gusto ko man na pahabain pa ito at magexpound pa, meron pa kong ph111lab na dapat alalahanin (actually yun dapat ang rason kung bakit ako online ngayon). bukas baka ngarag na ulit ako so i want to capture the moment with this post.

la la la ♫ ♫ ♫

jumbled thoughts

2008-07-29T18:35:00.009+08:00

I swear I'd really exert effort into getting my target GWA this sem.
Dette, Jus and Jorge - I love them so much.
I won't go home next weekend.
I love my sunblock.
Next week's exams: IP 195 lab, Chem 150, Ph 105, Ph 111 lab, Ph 111 lec, Histo 4. Enjoy Jen.
Wish there were more hours in a day.
Think Kuya Johann, think Nikki Estrella!
I was first diagnosed with anemia at age 4. And I almost always have low blood pressure.
I am trying to eat vegetables.
Last night I reflected on how I was so evil to him months ago, brainstormed and came up with my sorry strategy.
Lost 2 inches off my waist.
Have uniforms altered during the sembreak.
I wan't to have millions on my bank account now!
And go shopping nonstop.
Can't wait to go ukay with Angge.
Next time I'll ask Ate Remy to wake me.
Still have to email my part for Histo.
Quiz on Sexism in Language tomorrow.
Still feel lucky for having Ma'am Jose.
And being acquainted and friends with toooooot.
Here goes my hopelessness again.
Stop procrastinating!

*****
konting inspiration pa, gagawan na kita ng tula.
ayan, corny na naman ako.

sonata pathetique

2008-07-06T10:36:00.003+08:00

naalala ko yung first time na wala akong iniisip na pinakinggan ko ang Sonata Pathetique by Beethoven. sobrang natouch ako na napaluha ako. weird talaga. pero yun nga, nakakamove talaga yung piece.

today is a very special day. natugtog ko na ng buo yung piece na yun yey!!! =)

Saka pala Happy 14th Birthday Jamie. xp

one republic love

2008-07-05T10:51:00.004+08:00

Listen to One Republic and you'll be me amazed and moved to tears, especially their songs Say (All I Need) and All Fall Down. Whenever I listen to these I have to fight the urge to just lay in bed and play them over and over.

Their music tempts me to study one of the instruments in the violin family.

something that blinded me months ago

2008-07-03T10:34:00.005+08:00

I used to think they chose her over me, after all, she's always been the angelic one.

Anyway, with all the pressure and schoolwork to do, I'm sure no one wants to waste precious energy and time on old issues now.

make poverty history

2008-06-28T20:09:00.006+08:00

naalala ko lang, kahapon kasi sa "sex"- sinangag express sa pedro gil ako kumain kasama ng ilang blockmates at merong matandang nagtitinda ng alkansya... may ginawa na naman akong kakaiba, kahit friday na at naghihirap na ko, ayan na naman at lumalabas ang philantropist genes ng tatay ko.

naalala ko rin nung isang araw, naglalakad ako sa leon guinto papuntang faura - sa a.s. nang makakita nanaman ako ng domestic violence sa sidewalk. nagagalit yung tatay dahil umiiyak ang anak niya, "anong gusto mo? magandang buhay?" yung anak nakacurl na nakaupo habang pinapalo siya ng patpat ng tatay niya. buti nga wala akong kasama kundi nawirduhan na naman yun dahil sa luha ko. tulad kahapon si majo buti naman ok lang sa kanya kahit simpleng tumatawid kami ay lumuluha ako. mukha tuloy pinaiyak ako ni majo. hehe.

at kanina habang nasa bus ako pauwi dito sa bahay namromroblema ako kung pano maiaangat lahat ng nagugutom sa Pilipinas. tapos naisip ko na vinoice-out ko yung problema kong yun sa iba eh ireject lang nila at sabihin na wag ko pag-aksyahan ng brain cells yun kasi di ko naman kontrolado yun.

e pano tayo uunlad kung lahat tayo ganun mag-isip dahil akala natin wala tayong magagawa?

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sa makakabasa nitong post na to, weird lang talaga ko minsan pagdating sa awa, pero hindi naman masama. hehe..

metronome for sale?

2008-06-28T12:15:00.006+08:00

nafrufrustrate na naman ako. gusto ko ng metronome! dati eh naiinggit inggit lang ako sa madaming metronome sa music school ko pati sa dalawang metronome na nakalagay sa taas ng piano nila melay pero ngayon gusto ko na rin! yung analog syempre, hindi yung digital. at mas maganda rin sana kung may mga italian tempo terms na nakasulat gitnang column para mas madaling gamitin. tulad nung nasa unang picture. mahirap gamitin ang digital kung classic ka. anyway friends, pag nakakita kayo neto sa music stores o kahit saan, pakibalitaan na lang ako...

actually meron akong nakitang mga metronome sa ebay pero sa labas yun ng pilipinas. ayaw ko naman nun kasi baka malaglag-laglag at masira sa shipping.

small world

2008-06-21T19:00:00.000+08:00

hwokey. maliit lang pala talaga ang mundo. lalo pa ang pilipinas. posible palang hingin ng anak ng PNP Chief (Dir-Gen. Razon) ang number mo.

hopeless post

2008-06-20T21:32:00.007+08:00

Sayang, gusto pa naman kita.

Pero may nalaman ako tungkol sa'yo.

Hindi ko alam kung totoo, wala rin akong paraan para tanungin sa'yo.

Pero sa naiuugnay ko...

Totoo nga ba? Pwedeng hinde? Wala naman akong magagawa.

Buti na lang hindi ko sinabi kahit kanino na kahit akala nila iba, ikaw talaga.

Kung hindi, napahiya na naman ako.

Wala namang silbi.

At malamang diba clueless ka din.

Magtinginan na lang tayo.

Hindi mo naman mababasa to, pero blog ko to kaya kahit pathetic wala kang magagawa.

Hayaan mo na.

histo 4 excitement

2008-06-18T11:03:00.005+08:00

yey!!! histo 4 na mamaya. (at dahil sa centennial ng UP, suspended hanggan 1pm mamaya ang klase ay nag-iinternet ako ngayon.)

3 rason kung bakit ako nasasabik sa histo 4:

1. 2 years ago na sinabi ni ren na bagay daw sakin ang histo 4, ngayong 3rd year ko lang na-take finally. eh kasi naman dati eh sobrang tinatamad ako lumihis sa schedule ng block kaya nagsipag na ko ngayon, huling ssp ko na to eh.

2. wala akong friends sa histo 4! (hindi ko alam, baka meron bigla, basta wala naman akong ibang kakilalang nagregister neto eh. saka hindi siya block - restricted.) an opportunity to meet new friends! bonus na lang kung may Morg akong maging classmate.

3. fun daw si Ma'am Jose. (tama ba angge, babae ba yun?). anyway, sabi ni angge sa experience niya, nag-enjoy naman daw siya so hopefully ako rin.

yun lang. =)

viva la vida or death and all his friends

2008-06-14T14:47:00.003+08:00

Yay I'm so happy the new album of my all-time favourite Coldplay is out!!! I'll start listening to Coldplay's Viva La Vida or Death and All His Friends after I've downloaded all the helpful chem books I found in the internet.

I love Coldplay! Ü

stop exaggerating!

2008-06-14T10:44:00.007+08:00

You,

.......I thought we already talked and made peace with each other but, when talking to other people about me or something that somehow involves me, why do you still exaggerate things I say or do? Why, when telling people what I said, do you put additional words that do not come from my mouth? Do you still want our friends to hate me? Do you still want them to think I'm stupid? Haven't you still gotten over it? Or does your mind have automatic reruns of events where the dialogues are altered for your enjoyment?

........Tell me. I desperately want to know if you meant the peace you proposed, because I sincerely agreed (and still agree) to it.

........You gave me a last piece of advice, let me give you one too. Please please stop meddling with other people's social lives. You have your own, make adjustments in it, if and only if you want to step out of that shell and have your own enjoyment. It's also for your own good.

JEN

may nilaglag daw akong kaibigan, hindi naman totoo. ang galing talaga ng imagination mo.

love is a bettlefield, get some scars

2008-06-07T20:58:00.014+08:00

I just read Ellein's blog. It said something about her reading past emails with an old 'friend' and realizing how pathetic she was. See, she always apologized and felt miserable for the smallest things, as she puts it, she acted like "a slave apologizing to her master for eating too much." I love you Ellein, now I feel miserable for being oblivious and tolerant to all the mistakes I let you make during the course of that 'friendship'. Please forgive me. I, too, didn't know better then.

She reminded me of myself, and my 'friend'. Thinking of that relationship two and a half years ago still embarrasses me. The words I said after that made the reconciliation of our former friendship almost impossible. About a year and a half a go we tried to discuss the issues, both of us ended in tears we still weren't able to bring the nice back on. I still haven't felt the consequences of losing that friendship, but I know it will show sometime in the future.

But every 15-year-old is allowed a bit of immaturity at foolishness, right? No? As of now I still haven't figured out if that's the rational way of putting it or if that's just my way of tarping a sad story. Either way it convinced me never to walk that same trail again.

At the least, mistakes and experiences seldom fail to make an impression(trauma!) on a person.

Sometimes I wonder if everyone else has as much problems as I do, no, not the light problems I would freely discuss with anyone but the serious problems I would never dare tell anyone. Save a happy face for tomorrow.

random thoughts

2008-05-24T21:05:00.006+08:00

* 18th birthday kahapon ni Ruthlee (a.k.a. Bikbik) - siyempre nagkasama na naman kaming magpipinsan sa father side ko at nun ko lang napansin na lahat ay hindi lumalampas ng 17 years old na hindi marunong magmaneho.

* 1st birthday ni Sam. alam kong hindi mo mababasa to, pero miss na miss ka na ng ninang.

* naffrustrate na naman ako sa mga bagay na hindi ko kontrolado.

* mga album na pinakikinggan ko ngayon: move along (all american rejects), system (seal), taylor swift, we started nothing (the ting tings), little voice (sara bareilles), we sing we dance we steal things (jason mraz), narrow stairs (death cab for cutie), todo combo (moonstar88).

* masaya ako para kay Iji na mayroong bagong gitara at effects. sobra ka nang gagaling nyan, tama na!

* hindi na ko makapag - intay sa moving Twilight at sa bagong album ng Coldplay.

instability

2008-05-22T22:51:00.005+08:00

wow. eto na naman ang mga sitwasyon na madedepress ka talaga. bakit hindi na lang magkaintindihan lahat ng tao, lalo na yung mga mahalaga sayo, kung pareho lang naman ang gusto nilang mangyari? sino ba kasing nakaimbento ng pride na yan.

('friend', sinabi mo sakin dati na nag-iba ako sa kalagitnaan ng second sem, gusto ko sanang sabihin sayong sana maisip mo na may ibang pinanggagalingan pero ayokong ishare kahit kanino kung ano yun kaya hindi ko na lang sinabi. so yun, iniwan nyo ko dahil hindi niyo ko maintindihan. akala niyo tungkol lang sa isang tikre (-sorry, yun ang unang pumasok sa isip ko) lahat ng yon. pero nag-usap na tayo, siguro hindi na mahalaga yun ngayon.)

friends, pasensya na at nagkaron kayo ng emotionally unstable na kaibigan. pero mahal niyo naman ako kahit anong mangyari diba? siguro after 5 years ko lang masasabi sa inyo kung ano yung totoong dahilan. o hindi na. hay, ang gulo talaga.

F

2008-05-18T22:02:00.003+08:00

alin dun sa tatlong yun yung tinugtog niya? bakit naman kasi ang nilagay lang sa program ay Sonata in F (3rd movement), dapat may sonata number din. pano ko ngayon mapapakinggan uli? oo, grabe din ako mangstalk. 19 ang mga sonata ni Mozart, at 3 dun ang nasa F major (2, 12, 16). hindi ko naman matandaan yung tono kahit napanganga ko sa panonood sa gilid ng stage kaya wala rin kwenta kung pakinggan ko yung mga pinagpipilian ko.

buti na lang masayang masaya pa rin ako. hahahaha! at least, ....

ok lang naman sigurong magkaron ako ng pedophile phase(tuwing bakasyon). katanggap tanggap naman dahil 2 o 3 taon lang ang tanda ko. diba?

blues

2008-05-14T12:23:00.005+08:00

Ngayon ko lang natanto ang effort ni Rod last year. Mas mahirap pala talaga makabisa ang Secondo part ng duet, kahit pareho lang sila ng level ng Primo.

Kasi kung Primo ka, kadalasan mas matataas yung octave na tutugtugan mo, at dahil mas mataas yung octave, mas maririnig yung tugtog mo. Kung baga ikaw yung nagdadala ng melody sa piesa. Pag Secondo ka naman, mababa yung mga octave na tutugtugin mo, parang bass player ka, pero imbis na isang daliri lang tulad ng totoong bass guitar ay 2 kamay ang gagamitin mo, puro chords na ininvert sa kung anu-anong pusisyon at syempre iba rin yung rhythm kung ikukumpara sa Primo, para mas maraming tunog. Mahirap kabisaduhin ang bass part kasi wala kang melody na sinusundan, kung baga sa dula, props ka, pangpaganda lang sa kwento.

Ayun nga, Secondo ako ngayong summer na to, hindi ko kilala yung partner ko, di ko natanong yung pangalan. Hungarian Dance No. 5 ni Brahms ang tugtugin namin. Parang nangaasar ang mga bagay bagay, kasi tinalikuran ko na ang pagtugtog ng bass dahil masyadong maliit ang daliri ko para sa malalapad na fret non. Pati rin hindi ako magsosolo sa pagkakataong to, kasi ayoko tugtugin ditoyung piece na pinapatugtog sakin. Hindi bagay sa makikinig, basta.

Masaya sana kung maagang binigay sakin ni Mrs. Austria yung Tales From The Vienna Woods ni Strauss, Primo ako dun. Kay Rod nya binigay yung Secondo. Ang maganda ke Rod ay siya ang natugtog ng Secondo. Hahaha. Hindi ako gaanong nahihirapan magkabisa. Nung monday lang kasi niya binigay. Abalang abala pa ko sa pagkakabisa nung kay Brahms kaya di na namin matuunan ng pansin yung kay Strauss. Sayang talaga. Naiimagine ko na yung nanay ni Rod mamaya. "Jenny!!!"

*Magiging masaya ako bukas. Aakyat na naman ako sa highlands - alma mater, tapos kina Alexis (fiesta), tapos kina Riel. Hehe. Yey! =)

freak pinya

2008-05-11T09:02:00.005+08:00

Share ko lang ang kakaibang pinyang nakuha kahapon sa farm (si Jamie ang kumuha ng mga litratong to..):

parang flower, 'no?

Kaso hindi niya mabilang kung ilan yung ulo sobrang dami at dikitdikit. Okay lang, one in a million pa rin ang pinyang to.

dicta license disbanded

2008-05-01T19:47:00.008+08:00

Truth be told, I am not much of an OPM fan. I know I should be but I'm not. In fact, if I were to name local bands I really enjoy, I would come up with only four. Dicta License owns the top of that list.

I was searching for information about the band's possible new album (which I was so keen on buying) when I came up with an article about how Pochoy was already a lawyer and how the band disbanded. What? That quick?! (Actually they disbanded as early as oct. 13, '07. Yes, I'm a bit delayed when it comes to current events.)

I was expecting another album or two. I was looking forward to listening to more of their music filled with realistic nationalistic sentiments. I was planning on having my Paghilom album (finally) signed on one of their gigs. And I was going to buy a Dicta shirt.

"It’s a tough act then balancing his busy studies with his band’s gigs, he admits. The set up was further complicated by the fact that two of his band mates, Boogie Romero and Kelly Mangahas were also having problems dividing their time performing in Dicta License and Kjwan, another band. When the situation became unbearable, the group finally disbanded, leaving Labog all focused on his studies. "
(http://www.manilatimes.net/national/2008/apr/13/yehey/weekend/20080413week2.html)

And so I learned that their breakup was inevitable and was for the common good of the members. That somehow alleviates my pain. Anyone who has something so unique and precious taken away from them would understand how I feel.

Here's a letter from Pochoy:

Writing this brings pain to my heart, the kind you get whenever you've lost someone important in your life and then there's nothing else to do but move on.

I'm afraid that dicta will be having its last dance tonight, 11pm at 19 east, Sucat. Please be there with me as I enjoy one last moment on stage with Kel, Boogs and Bry.

Dicta has been my stronghold for almost 8 years. It was never just a band for me. It was a movement, a stage, and a platform to reach people and to somehow use words and music to pierce your hearts and awaken your souls. And now that we are here, on the brink of our career, I just hope that we have accomplished something close to that dream.

Do not worry about the four of us. For each member will do great in whatever path he takes. Also, I want to make it clear that our friendship is so much bigger than this and no matter how sad and frustrating this conclusion can be, we remain as friends.

This is it guys. Thank you for all the love and support and for believing in dicta.

We had an awesome time together! One last time later!

See you guys.

Sincerely,

Pochoy Labog
Dicta License Frontman

"I will carry you through the hurricane waters And I'll remember you in the blue skies."
-Citizen Cope

I will miss Dicta License.

gosh my crush

2008-04-21T21:09:00.011+08:00

Attorney na si crush Pochoy Labog (Dicta License)!! waaah. Ang galing galing nya!

661. JURIAL, Niño Jim B.

662. JUSTINIANI, JR., Romeo S.

663. KANAPI, Roberto Ricardo O.

664. KUONG, Dennis C.

665. LABIAL, JR., Ricardo P.

666. LABOG, Norberto Pocholo P.

667. LABRADOR, Chaveli Joan O.

668. LABUSTRO-GARCIA, Jacquelyn A.

669. LACAMBRA, JR., Modesto C.

670. LAGAT, Eileen Mae B.

671. LAGMAN, Mary Rosary D.

672. LAGMAY, Aries John P.

Kinikilig ako gosh. Haha. At eto pa. May nahagilap ako kanina na pictures nya nung long-hair pa siya. Diba bihira lang yung lalaking carry nila yung long hair? Isa siya sa mga yun, (at isa pa si Arvin Toledo)- pero nagpagupit na sila ngayon. Ayos lang, almost perfect parin. Ü

Hay Lord. Sana po, nangangarap lang naman po, maging friends kami. Magbabagong buhay na po ako, basta pakigrant lang po yung wish ko. Haha. Sana rin po intayin nya ko. Haha. O kahit ngayon na po ok lang din. (wut. okaaaaay tama na, nakakaawa na ko.)

toby

2008-04-18T20:50:00.004+08:00

well, may bago na naman kaming obsession ni little sister Jamie. si Toby! nga lang e nakiki-obsess lang ako, kanya talaga si Toby. Obviously, kung akin siya, ang naging pangalan nya ay Toma. Eto sya:

Kawaiiiii!!!!!!!

*ngayon ko lang nakita, mukha siyang kuneho sa picture na to. hehe. ang cute cute.*

toma!

2008-04-16T18:51:00.005+08:00

Hm. I think I've fallen in love with Toma Ikuta. Don't get me wrong. I don't watch anything aired on GMA. I discovered Hana Kimi through my cousin a few months ago.

Perfect, right? You should watch him act, you'll be impressed - he won Best Supporting Actor twice! Ha!

Anyway, I'm playing Hungarian Dance No. 5 by Brahms, 4 hands, with someone. We're yet to be introduced so I don't know who he is yet, maybe next week. I hope he's like my past partners, because performing a duet's way better than playing a solo piece. And it's always better appreciated by the crowd.

It's sort of rainy season here already. Just when we thought it can't get any hotter, it suddenly started raining. Hard. And frogs are starting to inhabit our garage, garden and backyard again. If you knew me, you would know I am hardly able to step out of the house these days, specially when darkness falls.

That's all, I'll search for something to watch on crunchyroll now. =)

to do list

2008-04-02T21:03:00.006+08:00

I'm making a list of stuff I have to do this summer. (yes, even though I'm still in academic purgatory and there's a possibility I'll attend summer classes. ohdear. I hope not.) Here goes, in no particular order:

1. Self-study playing other instruments. (I would have counted on Keith and Iji for this but I won't meet with them this summer. Maybe next sem.)
2. Really practice twice a week, or at least before going to lessons.
3. Go to a beach in another island with my high school friends.
4. Buy the Nodame bag. (this I want to accomplish before April ends)
5. Fully recover from the storm of incidents this sem.
6. Derive and write Canon in D from the one I have in C.
7. Download and watch lots of Asian series.
8. Persuade my brother to play the guitar.
9. Be a better businesswoman. (and please earn more!)
10. Prepare my mind for next sem.
11. Be with my high school friends.
12. Be a brave driver.
13. Do something productive for MOrg.
14. Continue watching Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill.
15. Have a haircut.
16. LOSE WEIGHT! Exercise and eat less! (seriously. Since last sem started I gained 6 lbs. I hate it.)
17. Read the pile of novels waiting for me here.
18. Compose modern stuff, at least accompaniments, for the band.
19. Exert effort in singing.
20. Cook meals.

Yes, I know, I'm a bit on the ambitious side right now. I hope the mood's still here after I get my grades on friday. wwaahh!

nodame bag

2008-03-30T10:06:00.004+08:00

friends! lalo ka na angge (dahil alam kong marami kang alam na bilihan ng kung ano ano.), gusto ko ng ganitong bag:

may nakita ako sa isang site nakabili daw siya ng ganito (pero sa singapore yan, asa namang meron dito sa pinas.):

pag may nakita kayo kung saan, pakisabi na lang sakin. o kung sino mang may alam kung pano gumawa ng bag na katya, pakituruan naman ako.

salamat! =)

to a friend

2008-03-29T10:15:00.006+08:00

I remember you saying you'd blog about all my faults and imperfections. Yes, even then, I knew the both of you already hated me. If you already did, or are planning to do so, I would not know. But I appreciate and thank you for wanting to and exerting effort for my improvement.

***

being wrong is different from being solely wrong.

schizophrenic episodes

2008-03-13T14:24:00.003+08:00

listening to: The Indefinite Transition of Percieved Realities by Paramita

who among my few readers has Paramita's album Tala?
borrow, please? (pero sige. titingin na ko sa record stores kung meron pa.)

****************************************************************

SORRY AGAIN.

sorry

2008-03-13T12:53:00.004+08:00

to everyone i've annoyed, hurt and confused for the past few months, i'm really sorry.
i know i've said things without thinking.

you can expect better from me now.

character assassination

2008-03-10T22:29:00.006+08:00

WHAT'S THE POINT OF ATTACKING ME BEHIND MY BACK? DO YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT MY IMPERFECTIONS? I NEVER SAID ANYTHING BAD AGAINST YOU AND WHATEVER'S HAPPENING TO YOUR (LOVE)LIFE FROM THE BEGINNING, FOR YOUR INFORMATION, BECAUSE IT'S NONE OF MY BUSINESS.

ABOUT THE PAST, IT'S NOT EVEN YOUR ISSUE TO BEGIN WITH, I CAN'T SEE WHY YOU'RE SO AFFECTED. THE ISSUE'S OVER, AND YOU'RE STILL OBSESSING.

DO YOURSELF A FAVOR AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE.

trills, MOrg love, ocean park

2008-03-01T19:27:00.007+08:00

Sometimes, you have to tell the truth early on, even if there are negative consequences, so people won't end up wasting their time on the same shit for months.

Yeah, my piano teacher insisted, for months, that I should master and follow the prescribed 4-trill-notes-per-beat rule. To be honest, I hate trills (maybe because I was never really able to play them properly). It was only when we were practicing earlier today that she told me it's ok if I don't follow the prescribed number of trills (because she finally realized I don't have the talent for trills), as long as I make it sound like trills, after all, they're just accessory notes(though the elderly pianists in the crowd will probably notice the modification I/we made).

So much for 6 months trying to perfect trills. btw, the concert's tomorrow (bring bananas for your nerves, jen.)...

Anyway, last night was MOrg Love!! yay! Ü

It was almost perfect (the only depressing thing is MOrg's fiscal problems..). Here's a picture of the last band, Sugarfree (yay to Nas and me for being their band aids):

Last night (actually, this morning) is also the first time I approached an artist for something. Well, because my friend Majo wanted a souvenir from Ebe (vocalist) - preferably a guitar pick. But as I saw it none in the band used a pick so I eyed the can Ebe was drinking his San Mig Light from. But I didn't want her to have trash so I scanned for another item. Then I saw the white plastic bracelets he was wearing. He looked friendly enough (and I wasted enough) so I asked for one of those bracelets after their performance. Good thing he's accommodating, and I got Majo her souvenir.

And today was Manila Ocean Park day.

I learned loads about aquatic life, but what really got me was the Japanese something crab (biggest arthropod in the world). It was so big and tempting. uhh. I just wanted to grab it from it's aquarium and boil it in the biggest casserole I can find.

actually

2008-02-16T23:17:00.008+08:00

oh no. i'm such an irresponsible morg member. sorry, orgmates, kahit alam kong hindi nyo mababasa to. i should have done a duty last friday but i deliberately didn't. sorry. alam nyo rin naman, mahirap yun, pati kayo nahihirapan. and sorry i wasn't able to wear formal last thursday (uh, ni hindi ko nga kayo nasamahan nung thursday) kasi thursday is uniform day...

126 exam - alam kong kung mago-o.c. si ma'am sa pagchcheck, malamang marami akong mali. pero kung ang gusto nya lang e yung thought or gusto nya lang mafigure kung naiintindihan ng sumasagot, mabubuhay naman ako. (gumawa ako ng bagong lecture kagabi sa subject na to. reviewer lang naman dapat ang gagawin ko pero sinipag ako so yun. kung gumawa rin naman kasi ako ng reviewer parang lecture din. kasi yung notebook ko ay klinepto na. actually. kilala ko kung sino pero syempre di naman aamin yun. hindi nga umamin, so i didn't press the issue. sige kunyari may ungrateful mysterious person na nanghiram na lang at di na binalik. plus i'm not yet mean enough to embarass someone just because of a lecture notebook.)

tumira nga pala ko ng 2 lipovitan ira bottles para magising, pati maraming food for energy. pero dun sa unang bottle tulog ako. 6 hours naman, medyo matagal for a typical pre-exam sleep(i.e. 2 to 3 hours). well. malakas naman ang loob ng lahat matulog nang matagal pag pharm chem exams kasi usually after lunch ang sked. so yun. nagets at naalala ko naman lahat ng reaction mechanisms so ok lang mag-indulge sa tulog.

pagkatapos ng exam bumili ako ng teargas for mom. it's super cute, apple green leather case, i could post a picture here but i'm too lazy to do that right now. pagkatapos din ng exam pumunta kami ke rohanna tapos yun, i won't elaborate on the details pero super enjoy. Ü

thought for the day: less talk, less issues, so jen, shut up.

daydream

2008-02-10T07:33:00.000+08:00

I've been smiling, no, grinning, like an idiot for almost a whole day now. It's stupid, and I sound like a hopeless romantic, but who cares? hmmmm...... Ü

like a star that's slowly fading; like ice so cold and clear; love would've been just a memory forgotten; but now love is all that i feel since you took away all my fears. (brickwall, weeband)

spice girls

2008-01-27T12:14:00.000+08:00

yey! i just finished downloading spice girls' discography via torrent. i can't wait to listen to their songs all over again after almost a decade (you don't know how disraught i was when they split up).

also, while eating lunch, i suddenly remembered the first letter i wrote when i was a kid...

jen : mommy, naalala mo ba, nung bata pa ko sumulat ako sa spice girls?
mommy : (looks guilty) oo.
jen : pinadala mo ba yun?
mommy : hindi.
jen : kaya pala hindi sila nagreply.

wut??

fatigue

2008-01-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

know how you don't even have time to sleep because of everything you have to finish at night (quizzes, assignments, dept exams)? then your alarm chooses that night/morning to be totally useless [it works. but somehow the sound doesn't get to you/your hand subconsciously disables the alarm].

then you get all cranky and stupid and forgetful and overly-sensitive and bitchy during the day.

i need rest.

tatakau monotachi

2008-01-19T22:06:00.000+08:00

page 1 of my current project...

sana lang hindi ako atakihin ng katamaran. ^^

last post for 2007

2007-12-31T19:33:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year, friends!! Ü